Playing catch up through pictures



Dad, Grandparents, and Aunt with the girls after some yummy mexican :]




Baby Besties




It's legit.




Noah loves Gracie




And his Belle




Grownup besties... also legit.




Just like her Daddy, boots and a diaper.




That face <3




Cousin love




Tug of war




Amy Baby




First time with rice cereal




She liked it though you can't tell by her faces ha ha




With Hubby and Grandpa




Grandpa's famous hat



Blessings and Second Birthdays.. Where Does The Time Go?!

It is 12 o'clock at night... I am dead tired and feeding an angry colicky baby. However, I finally found my cameras usb ( It was where it should have been, so obviously I didn't look there Ha ha) so I need to do the post I have been promising for weeks. Having a baby is hard. Having a colicky baby is even harder. Having a colicky baby and a teething toddler with special needs means Momma is a bit insane and doesn't have time for showers or cleaning the house. Let alone blogging. So sorry, I promise I'll be better once everything settles down!!




Learned to make this deliciousness at young womens.



We miss you Margie!!

Oh my goodness that smile kills me!!

Love her professional pictures. She did such a good job.



The babes!!

Bens side... You can tell by the height difference ha ha



Sean and Deana... Belle was playing with her aunties.

Tim and Adriana

Love them!!

Bestie bomb

My side

The girls love aunt Shirley!!

Friends!! Our girls are all a month apart. Oldest to youngest (left to right)

Aunt Nomie with Gracie

My Darling niece.

Great Grandpa playing with Belle.

My handsome Hubby

I can't believe my baby is two!!

Family of four

This last month has been... so many things. My heart has grown once again with sweet Gracelyn Emma joining our little family. I love her so much it hurts. She is wonderful and perfect. It has also been very difficult though. Gracie girl is very different from Belle. Where Belle slept non stop and hardly ever cried, Gracelyn is colicky, and very needy. She screams whenever I am not holding or feeding her 75% of the time. It wouldn't be so bad if  she was a first child, but she's not. I still have Belle to take care of and love on. Belle has gotten very jealous and clingy since becoming a big sister. While it is helping her development it still breaks my heart. I want to be the perfect mom, giving both my girls every thing they want and need at the same time but I don't seem to be able to yet. My house is in perpetual need of a good clean, showers do not happen as often as they should and I cry way too often ( which if you know me you know it is a big deal,  I never cry.) I am a control freak and a perfectionist. I have such a hard time trying but being unable to do do everything perfect, like I see other Moms doing on facebook and pinterest like 2 days after birth. Add crazy hormones, no sleep, and a horrible post pregnancy body and you have one messed up momma. I have decided to try and workout and eat healthier. I am going off red meat and chocolate and limiting empty carbs and sugars for a month. I am hoping it will help me feel better and also help with Gracie's colic. I know it will get easier once we find a routine that works for us. I am really so grateful to be a mother to these two beautiful girls even when times are at their hardest. Sorry this has been a bit of a downer, but this is my diary and family history. I also know that there are many new mothers out there that are struggling as well. They need to know that it is OK to not be perfect, to cry when their babies are crying and they feel so alone and overwhelmed. You are not a bad mom. Being a mother is hard work. We need to uplift and help each other. I hope this blog is able to help someone. Writing it was difficult, admitting your not perfect is hard. It is the truth though. Plus through all of this I have had to turn to my Heavenly Father for help even more then usual, and that is always a humbling blessing. More pictures soon :]

First real bath